Friday, December 24, 2010


boring mati ak mnunggu c hafe :( .its like i've wait for a year already..hafe.pls come back :( .
I need you here really badly.i miss you .hmph.i keep thinking of you ntil it gives me damn headache.HAFE ! where the hell r u? :(

Monday, December 20, 2010

F.Y.I : this is the picture that she said cute la.apa la.hahaha!

My story :)

17.7.2010. My happiest day :) .i'll never forget this date sweetie.This is the day that i've fall in love with you kan?hee :D

I woke up in the morning n then p on fb.kboringan.bru blik dri london th ari.after a few minutes chatting with some of my friends and cousin.There's a girl named hafezatul hanis showed up in my friend request list.I accept her to be in my friend list :DD .Actually,i already starting to like her when she send me friend request.ive checked her fb profile soo many times. :D.biarla kan?x mara juga.ahahah.sepa2 ja yg add ak pn d 'accept' ja.ahahahaha!thn c hafe ni mula suda comment2 gmbar ak time d london.pegang camera.senyum and my eyes were gone.haihh.npa la stiap kali snyum trus ilang ba mata.but c hafe p comment ' urmm ok,ur soew cute..haha. . aqib:haha .thx :) .u too. hafe:ak??ak beysa2 jrk.hee. aqib: mnda ~cute baa . hafe:thx..ckyt g mw mletup gara2 kembank.haha.xda ba.*hahaha, mletup knu aa showmell :D* aqib:hahaa .kiks :p . hafe:thx 4 de like..nyway,ur soew it.*aa.lupa suda.apa yg ak p like tuh.hee.swry :p* aqib: haha .u too . hafe: oh god,i'm goin' to b ur fans..haha.kidding.*when she said this,at last.i was laughing and keep smiling :) .at this time,she's starting to change me bit by bit.* aqib: lols .hahahaha .u'r funny :p . hafe: seryuz,ak fanz kw nee.hahaha.xdala,t gf kw mara plk.*bby xda gf ba time ni* aqib: haha .xda gf yaww .single ba nee .y all ppl say i gt gf liao ? =.= .hafe:coz ur soew cutee,tkkn la xda oewrank mynt.haha. aqib: haha lols .i dunno liao .ak anggp ak ne xda org minat jaks .hahaha .*to tell u the truth sweetie,i've never think for a girl to have intrest in me*.'
After this.she's starting to chatting with me using the chatbox :D .banyak laa sweetie p tnya ne.mcm2 ba soalan.ahahaha.kan sweetie?biasanya bby mls mw lyn ba org yg bnyk tnya ne.but since i like you already.x rasa malas suda mw jawab soalan th.mkin suka plak bby jawab suwmaaa soalan yg sweetie tnya :) .then we continued chatting for hours and hours.she kept asking me question until evening.i didn't relize we already chatted for hours :) .its soo much fun to chat with you sweetie.spotting lgi tuh.ahaha!when she said 'kw ada mw tnya pa2 ka?tnya ja suwma.i'll answer all your questions.naaa.time ne mula suda bby malu2 xP .my heart beats faster and faster.hee! .*malu plk mw ckp :pp* .i keep asking her some lousy question that i duno what the hell i'm asking her now.wkakakakak!then i asked her 'what kind of boy do u like?' .after she told me her answer,i remembered i said this 'alaaaa.suwma ak 1 ja teda :( ' hee!mula suda mgurat sweetie ne :D .thn banyak laa bby tnya soalan budu2 tuh.lupa suda apa bby tnya.thn sweetie mac mw bby tnya sweetie lgi.thn i ask you ' single ka?' .thn lupa suda apa sweetie ckp.hmmm..klu x silap sweetie ckp 'yea' tuh.and thenn ,haha!eee.malu ler i :pp .sweetie tnya lgi bby 'anymre question?' .hmm..time ne bby malu ba.hee.nasib baik bby brani ckit :) .i ask you this 'if i ask you to couple with me?' .thn ntah apa sweetie ckp.yg bby ingt panjang tuh.lpas th sweetie tnya lgi balik 'ada lgi yg mw d tnya??' .bby ckp 'i need your answer?'trus bby ckp 'i like you actually'sweetie tnya bby balik 'why do u like me? i answer it without wasting my time and tell you my feelings :) .i said 'cuz i love you' .hahaha! ee.malu lerr.thn u said 'oh gosh!so gentleman..'trus sweetie tdiamm skjap.sweetie tkejut ka?ahahah!and than i say 'so its a no ?ak tau la ak ne ndk hnsem ba' .trus sweetie mcm maraa jak.u said 'sepa ckp?my face turn red already..soo i say YES' .eeeeeee :DDDDDD .when you said it sygs..its like i was the happiest guy in the world.hahahaha!tpi yg pelik.i haven't have your phone number at all :pp .lpas kta couple bru bby minta kan?ahahaha.sot ne.

p/s:Sweetie,you're the girl that gives me hope to live and you're the reason why i'm still here :) .You gave me such happiness that no other girls can give me.Lot's of girl in the world..but i choose you.Why?cause i love you <3

The truth about me :)


1. Last beverage: yoyo

2. Last phone call: hafe :)

3. Last text message: hafe :)

4. Last song you listened to: i dunno.


6. Dated someone twice: nope.

7. Been cheated on: pernahh.

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope

10. Been depressed: yeah.

11. Been drunk and threw up: never ever in my life !


12. black

13. red


15. Made a new friend: yeaa. a few :)

16. Fallen out of love: maybe .

17. Laughed until you cried: yeahh!

18. Met someone who changed you: yes !!

19. Found out who your true friends were: yes ! and im glad.

20. Found out someone was talking about you: idk.

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: NOPE

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: most of them because i just accept people i know.

23. How many kids do you want to have: privacy :D

24. Do you have any pets: nope .

25. Do you want to change your name:NO

26. What did you do for your last birthday?: lupa.

27. What time did you wake up today:11+

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: bgayutt :D

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: meet my showmell ♥

30. Last time you saw your Father: a minute ago

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my family :')

32. What are you listening to right now : nothing.

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: no .

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: erm, nothing ?

35. Most visited webpage: facebook.ultimate-guitar.

36. What's your real name: Aqib othman

38. My close friends: most of my classmates.

39. Zodiac sign: scorpio.

40. Male or female : male.

41. Elementary: sk stella maris

42. Middle School? : sabah college

43. High school/college?: im still in middle school :D

44. Hair colour: black.

45. Long or short:long

46. Height: 160cm

47. Do you have a crush on someone? : just my showmell ba :D

48: What do you like about yourself? : well, everything about me . im thankful enough.

49. Piercings: NO

50. Tattoos: i dnt want .

51. Righty or lefty: righty.


52. First surgery: time kecik.

53. First piercing: -

54. First best friend: lupa.

55. First sport you joined: lumba lari

56. First vacation: lupa.

58. First pair of trainer: ermm.


59. Eating:nothing

60. Drinking: nothing.

61. I'm about to: finish this crap ! xD

62. Listening: raining fall

63. Waiting:  my hafe to reply her text :D


64. Want kids? : yeahh.

65. Get Married? : of course.

66.Career? : architect.


67. Lips or eyes: lips.

68. Hugs or kisses: hugs

69. Shorter or taller: both

70. Older or Younger: both ! 

71. Romantic or spontaneous: maybe both .

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both :D

73. Sensitive or loud: loud :)

74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship of course .

75. Trouble-maker or hesitant: trouble-maker ! hahahaha.


76. Kissed a stranger: never.

 77. Drank hard liquor: nope.

 78. Lost glasses/contacts: never.

79. Sex on first date: haha! budu kw.NEVER.

80. Broken someone's heart: idk .maybe i've did.but i dun even noe who :D

82. Been arrested: bakar rumah.

83. Turned someone down: maybe.

84. Cried when someone died:NEVER .

85. Fallen for a friend?:yesh .


86. Yourself: of course.

87. Miracles: yes .

88. Love at first sight: yes

89. Heaven: yeap.

90. Santa Claus: nope.

91. Kiss on the first date:yesh .

92. Angels: yeap?


94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at one time :NEVER.

95. Did you sing today?: yes !

96. Ever cheated on somebody?: no . im loyal to her ::)

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: primary school

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: i dnt knoww :D

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: no ! :D

100. Posting this as 100 truths?: yeahh.all the truths :D

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Stupidity of me

on Monday,suddenly come my DAMN fucking mind to say those fucking words that hurting her.I don't know why i said those things.Am i INSANE ?antar p bukit pdang.hmph.Since then,she's hurted,angry and asking for break up.I don't want it.I'm very regret for what i've done to her,what i've said those things to her.I didn't mean it.seriously..After that she didn't reply my text,she didn't answering my call.I call soo many times.She turned off her phone and im crying like a girl begging for forgiveness.*Guys,Don't ever say hurting words to your girl or else you'll ended up like me*.Seriously i really don't wanna break up.I promised her that we wont break up,doesn't matter what happens.I'm keeping my promises cause i love her soo damn much.I don't wanna let her go.I don't want to leave her.There's already few times i broke my promise.and i'm so damn STUPID to broke it.I keep crying and crying.I can't stop.she's really angry.Then she turned on her phone and aswer my call.I keep saying 'sorry,i didn't mean those words.i'm sorry*while cying on the phone with her*.Then she turned off the call and text me 'yala2.give me time' .I still crying.I can't sleep whole day.I bang my head to the walls.I punch my head for a few times very hard..My head hurts.I don't care cause i'm very regretful.I was nearly faint.But i don't want her to worry about me more.I'll be a burden to her.I don't want that happen.So i tried to calm down for a while.I stop crying.I can't forget it until now ;'( .I pray to god to let her forgive me for what i've done.